Saturday, December 9, 2017
Read Psalm 139:13-17
A year after I accepted Christ and chose to become a disciple, I was put to the test… and I failed. I was serving a three point charge and nearly ready to graduate from seminary when it happened. I got pregnant. My friends were basically like me, from a feminist background, and none of us had a problem with abortion. I had visited an abortion clinic during my classes on pastoral counseling and the folk there were friendly, cheerful. So I prayed about what to do, read a book from a Christian counselor called Abortion the Agonizing Decision, and had no qualms about calling them up and scheduling an abortion. It went smoothly. I didn’t leave with regrets; if anything, I was relieved. My plans were on track. It was later that I began to realize that this was a new, separate human life inside me, not a clump of cells. The regret and grief hit with a sense of tragic finality. I had taken an innocent life and there was no way back.
But notice how this happened. I prayed, I sought out several friends who were Christian for advice, I talked it over with my husband and I read a book from a Christian counselor!! And yet I was deceived. My friends were deceived, my husband was deceived, Christian counselors were deceived… by a lie convincingly told that what was growing inside of my body was not really human yet, that it was my choice to make as a woman, and that my education and my career were most important.
I’ve often wondered, if even one of the people I spoke to had suggested a different path, would I have chosen differently? Perhaps. If I had known God’s Word better, would I have chosen different? Perhaps. Those questions have made me speak up for the life of every baby in the womb, teach scripture with all my heart, and encourage people to read the Bible for themselves. God says that even tiny human life growing in secret is known and important to him! I don’t want someone else to make the same tragic mistake I did because there was no one willing speak up for those who can’t speak up for themselves. And at the same time, I try to remind women who have walked down this same deceptive path that there is amazing forgiveness in Jesus Christ. When I prayed confessing how horribly I had sinned, I felt that amazing grace wash away the guilt. I stand in awe of what God can do. He offers that same forgiving grace to you as well.
PRAYER: Jesus, as we prepare to celebrate your birth, forgive us, your people, for the deception we have allowed to flourish in our land. Enable us to boldly resist our adversary, the devil, and speak lovingly toward those who are hurting from his deceit. Amen.
Prayer Focus: those regretting the loss of a child